Ever since I was old enough to work with children I have. I grew up in my church working with kids once I was no longer considered a child. Sometimes I look back and think, did I even stand a chance? I had no choice, children are my life, and I would have it no other way.
I really love kids, all sorts, especially babies. If the President of the United States walked in and there was a baby in the room, I am quite certain the baby would distract me more than Barack Obama. When people ask me my hobbies, I tell them, kids.
The more I have grown, matured, and figured out who I am, more and more God has been revealing to me his heart. Many people have given me prophetic words about how I will "mother the nations" that I have God's maternal heart, one time someone even said I am like mother hen, and that my chicks will follow me and I will show them the arms of Jesus (not bad, seeing as I enjoy a good game of follow the leader). I believe these passions are a gift from God, and I intend to teach, love, care for, provide for, play with, dress, bathe, and feed children for the rest of my life.
God teaches me a lot about himself, through examples of his father heart and mother heart. I was watching a little boy the other day sit in someone's lap. She was sitting on the floor cross-legged and he was just sitting there, stomping his feet and smiling. Completely content, just like a 2 year old should be. Immediately God told me, "be like that". I thought about it, we are supposed to be like a 2 year old sitting on someone they love and trust's lap. They don't have a worry, they are taken care of, they are provided for, they are 2, they cannot fathom what their parents have in store for them, but they know that their parents love them and that is all that matters. That is how we are supposed to be on our Father's lap, completely content, kicking our legs and smiling because we have a great Dad who loves us to sit on his lap.
Recently God gave me another picture. I remembered when I was little, I would suck my thumb and hold my mom or dad's ear. I still remember how at peace I felt when I did that. How secure I felt. I remember laying on my mom's chest and hearing her talk, and how soothing her voice was to me, I knew it was okay because I was with my mom. When I remembered that I prayed immediately. My heart so yearns to be that comforting voice to a baby, to a child, to be that security, to be that person that makes everything seem okay. I really want to be a mom one day. God knows my heart, and he told me something. "Let me be that comforting voice." I yearn so much to be a mom one day, but God yearns for us to be on his lap, secure and content in him each day. Be still. Lay your head down. "Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10
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